HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 16

Good morning. Another overcast day in Miami. Unfortunately, this is the norm for this time of year.
I need to take one of my cars in for service and some new tires.

I think I will just drop the car off and go for a run. It will depend on the weather and how long it may take to get all the work done.

At my doctors appointment yesterday, I shared my concern about staying on the diet for the full 42 days, especially since I started the boot camp.

The doctor agreed with me. She said that if I am still losing, to keep going. If not, take a break and eat P3 while I go to the boot camp.

We'll just have to see how it goes.

I really need to find other things to snack on. Because I do such strenuous workouts, I really do get hungry during the day. My biggest obstacle is the vending machine at work and a big jar of candy that is always stocked full of my favorites. I need a visualization or mantra to help keep me away from them. It's a tough struggle. One of these days, they will come up with healthy alternatives in the snack machine. Hey, that gives me an idea. Imagine a vending machine with yougurt parfaits, cheese sticks, fresh fruit cups, protein shakes and the such. Hmmmm. great idea.

Anyway...not sure what the menu for the day will be. Be back later for more.

Menu

Workout
Protein Shake
Lunch: Roast Beef Lettuce Wraps with Scallion and Horseradish Mustard, coleslaw
Dinner: Veal cutlets (on the Foreman Grill) and roasted radishes
Snack: Strawberry Sorbet (frozen strawberries, stevia and a splash of parkling water, frapped in the blender)

Back on Track Again

Good morning. I'm getting back on track. I ot my groceries fror P3 yesterday and will be precooking some meals. Trying to eat really clean to get the "trip" weight back off. But I'm dealing with this horrible cold. It's keeping me down. Along with the pinched nerve in my neck. grrrr. Hate feeling like crap.

Definitely going to see the doctor today.

Menu

Walk/jog 5 miles
Protein Shake
Lunch-Roast beef lettuce wraps with blue cheese and sun dried tomatoes
Snack-macadamia nuts
Dinner-curried shrimp, avocado
Snack- smoked gouda

Need to eat more veggies, but with this illness right now, I'm lucky I got that food in me. Lots of fluids though.

Day 38 and Trying to Recover

It's Day 38th of the HCG diet. I have 8 more days of the VLCD to go. Then on to maintenance. I am still trying to recover from my swerve off protocal 2 days ago. They say it takes 2 days for your body to "own"a loss or gain. So, if my cheating is going to show, it will be today. Needless to say, I am not so anxious to get on the scale.

I slept okay last night (with the help of sleeping pills). I am still emotional about my sons leaving. He finally go to the AF Base late yesterday evening. I'm sure hes more exhausted than I. It is going to be a big physical and emotional adjustment for both of us.

Now I sit on pins and needles waiting for the phone call with his address. I cant wait to start writing him.

On to diet related stuff. I have a funeral at 11am then work at 2. Trying to figure out when to fit my lunch in. If I have to, I will take a lunch box. Definitely eat a fruit before I go. Made that mistake once and ended up eating PB crackers so I didn't pass out.

The menu for the day. In no particular order.

Orange roughy, spinach
Shrimp, brussel sprouts
Veal Steak

i know. That's a horrible menu.

Tomorrow will be a better day. I finally got the call from my son. Feeling less stressful right now.

Getting Back on Track

My son is gone....I spent all day yesterday at the Military Processing Center. He finally left around 3pm. Missing him already. I had another difficult night sleeping. I'm sure this will get easier. Ihave a funeral to go to this morning and then work.

Yesterday, I didn't think to take a fruit of something with me to MEPS. By 1pm, I was feeling truely lightheaded and dizzy. I kept drinking my water, but it wasn't helping. I had to break down and get some PB crackers from the vending machine. I knew it was wrong, but it was the best option in the machine. I ate them and felt better physically, but guilty emotionally. On the way home, after a very sad goodbye, I caved. I stopped by KFC and got one of their bowls, mashed potatoes, chicken nuggets, corn, gravey, cheese. Boy did I screw up. Who knows what the scale will show today. I'm very upset with myself and I know that I am going to have gained and it will show today or tomorrow.

Today I will be back on track and tomorrow I will start my walks again. Guilt is a horrible thing. Stress is a horrible thing. but I must move forward and just let it go. Learn from the mistake, try not to let it happen again and carry on.

Well here goes nothing. Time to get on the scale and see the damage. 223.6 damn.

Oh well...keep calm and carry on

Todays Menu

workout

Snack: egg whites

Lunch: roast beef and cabbage

Snack: 1/2 grapefruit

Dinner: onion crusted veal, asparagus

Snack: ????

Ball of Nerves

It's early and I slept like crap. last night, after dinner, we came home and got my sons things ready to go. By 9:45 we were out the door and on the way to the hotel where he stayed last night. That was hard enough. This morning, he will wake and then go to the Military Entrance Processing Command (MEPS)for his final paperwork and swearing in. Then the group will leave on a shuttle to the airport and off to Lackland Air Force Base for basic training. I was tearing up last night when I dropped him at the hotel, he said "Mom, this is just goodnight, I will see you in the morning." It still stung like a thousand needles.
Needless to say, I didn't sleep well last night and will be leaving soon for MEPS to hang out with him for a little bit, say goodbye and watch him fly off into the wild blue yonder. As much trouble as he can be sometimes., I'm gonna miss him horribly.

Why bring this up? Well, they say stress and lack of sleep can be a big factor in weightloss. there have been a lot of studies that have linked weight loss/gain to stress, depression and sleep deprivation. I am hoping that this doesn't have an adverse affect on the diet. Today I am up 3 lbs. Is it stress, lack of sleep, sadness, or just the Red Lobster I ate last night? Who knows, but the combination of any of those could have done it.

I'm not going to get upset about it. It is what it is. Why add more stress fuel to the fire.

The rest of this morning will probably be one of the most difficult life moments for me. My son will be leaving, I will have an empty nest. I got some comfort last night from a friend who recently sent her son away to Virginia for college. She told me that I would cry, I would walk around in circles not knowing what to do. I would sit in his room and cry. The difference between her and I? She can contact her son everyday. I can't. I'm going to keep a little note pad with questions so that they are ready when he gets the chance to call.

Sigh....it's going to be a  long day.

Menu for the day....totally messed up
Lunch: pack of pb crackers from the vending machine
Dinner: KFC Bowl, coleslaw and a biscuit

Boy do I feel guilty. I would try to justify that it was stress and sadness that made me do it. But that's why I am fat to begin with. I need to quit trying to blame it on the food. The bottom line is that it was my choice to eat those things. I definitely need to work on the emotional aspect of the eating plan.