Long Weekend

It's Friday January 27th and I have a 3 day weekend. Yay for me. I have lots to do. I'm up early and ready to go. The one thing I vow NOT to do is obsess over this HCG diet. I haven't gotten on the scale this morning. After yesterdays gain, I'm not real anxious about it.

My favorite little Blue Jay, who I've name "Blue", (I know, not very creative for the creative type like me), is sitting outside my bedroom window. As he does every morning. Sometimes he stares right in at me. Other times he shows off on the branch and turns to see if I'm watching. My little guardian bird. He gives me inspiration every day to keep moving along.

I need to run to the store, do a little housework and get some work done on the e-stores. I have been neglecting them horribly.

Now, as afar as the diet goes, I need to do some ab-work. Seems the only place that I am not losing is my waist (or lack of it). I also need to take in some jeans.

I can honestly say that the one thing that I don't like about the HCG Diet Protocol is the fact that you CAN"T work out. I know this seems odd. This would appear to be the perfect diet. Lose alot of weight and don't work out. But I am frustrated by not being able to work out. It really goes against the grain of years of dieting and research. Can't wait until Phase 4. I want to sweat!

Be back later for the menu and stats for the day.

Snack: apple, protein juice
Lunch: roast beed lettuce leaves, asparagus
Snack:
Dinner:

Why am I slowing down so much?

Day 17 of Phase 2 of the HCG diet and only down .6....grrrrrr. However, I did work out yesterday and historically, I gain the day after I work out. Could that be it? Am I slowing to a snails pace? It's very frustrating to restrict yourself so much that all you get is a .2 loss. I'm beginning to wonder if I will reach my goal. I still have 25 days to go. I'm sure that if I do another round, I will follow the 800cal program. I really think that 500 is too low for my body weight.

Yesterday I was not feeling well. I ended up leaving work early because I had a fever. I feel the same this morning. I may go ahead and take some more pictures of myself today.

I need to break out the sewing machine and take in some pants. I tried on smaller jeans. They fit in the belly, but swallowing me in the butt and legs. Just my body type I guess. I've never had hips. Sort of straight up and down, even when I was thinner.

There are 2 other girls at work that are starting the program today. I enjoy that forums and facebook pages I belong to, but it will be nice to have someone in the flesh to talk to and compare notes with.

I have a follow-up doctors appointment on the 31st. I would really love to be down 25 by then. I'm still obsessing about the diet a bit. I really need to back down and just go about my day.

It's very early so I don't have a clue about todays menu.

Menu for the day:
Snack: apple w/ cinnamon, protein juice
Lunch: Onion Crusted veal cube steak, cabbage
Snack: Orange
Dinner: Crab/shrimp ceviche over micro greens salad

I also decided to do a Detox bath. How? You assk?

Fill the tub with the hottest water you can stand.
1c epsom salt
1c sea salt
2c baking soda

Soak for at least 40 minutes and make sure to drink cool water while you are in the bath. You will sweat alot. I started with the water kind of low and kept addin hot water to keep the temp up.
Felt wonderful afterwards.

Phase 2 Day 15 and Ridin' The Rollercoaster

After a 1.3 lb loss yesterday, I am up .4 this morning. grrrrrrrr.

I did work out yesterday, probably harder than I should have. So I went back to all of my logs, weight, activity, foods. I did find an interesting correlation. On the mornings after the day I worked out, my loss was miniscule or I gained. So I went looking for answers. I found an interesting article on water retention in muscles after working out. Could this be the culprit? I reviewed my foods and everything was the same. I stayed within the calorie range and even left out one of my wasa allowances.

I'm not saying this is the reason, just assumptions is based on my own statistics. We'll see what happens in the morning.

I'm curious to see if I've lost inches, well, I know I've lost some, but how much? I will reserve that for when I go back to the doctors on the 28th of this month, my 3 week check-up.

Back to the store today for some of that yummy roast beef. I need lettuce, spinach, cabbage and lettuce too.

Back later for the menu.

Lunch:Roast beef lettuce wraps w/ horseradish mustard, radish chips, grissini
Snack: Orange, protein juice
Dinner: Curry shrimp and cabbage
Snack: Apple

20lbs gone Phase 2 Day 14

I did it! Crossed over the 20lb mark. 13 full days of the HCG diet.

Down 1.3lbs for a total loss of 20.1lbs. I am kind of surprised because I had a moment of weakness, well not really weakness. I was hungry, gnawing hunger. Water didn't work and I was feeling dizzy and couldn't sleep. So I grabbed a couple of slices of roast beef and ate it. Why the sudden hunger?

I can only suspect a couple of things:

a) yesterday was my injection skip day

b) early in the day I felt like I wanted/needed to do some exercise, so I got on the elliptical machine and before I knew it I had been on 30 minutes and burned 330 calories.

c) I also did some crunches.

To date, 2 weeks, I have been completely consumed with the HCG Diet Protocol, almost to the point of obsession. I have tried to educate myself to the best of my ability, reading forums and facebook page documents. I think it's time to just make it a part of my day without thinking. I am pretty comfortable with allowable foods and portion sizes. I credit this to journaling on FitDay. And get back to doing everyday activities, focus on my jewelry making, which I have put off for the last 2 weeks.
With my son getting ready to leave, I have things to take care of in regards to that too.
Time to just carry on and quit stressing and obsessing about it.
Haven't decided the menu for the day, it's still very early. Probably shrimp and chicken for my proteins. Maybe asparagus and cabbage for veggies. I'll be back to update the menu.
Menu for the day:
Snack: 1/2 apple, protein juice
Lunch: Grilled chicken salad
Dinner: Curried Shrimp and Cabbage Soup, Grissini
Snack: Strawberries

Found out today that we can have brussel sprouts. I'm happy because I don't eat most of the allowable veggies. Fennel (yuk), Beet Greens (can't find them) cucumbers (not that into them) Tomato (never whole, just use them sparingly)

Time for bed. Stay tuned.

Inspirig Myself -Phase 2 VLCD Day 11

I woke up this morning with swollen fingers. The curry chicken cabbage soup I had yesterday was a little on the salty side. So I figured that the scale would not be good to me. So, with much trpidation, I stepped on the scale and to my delighted surprise, WAIT FOR IT~~~~~~

I lost another 2.4 pounds

TOTAL Loss 17.8

I was literally doing the naked Happy Dance (sorry, don't visualize that this early in the morning).

Now, I'm not sure if I mentioned this on an earlier post, but I had set a conservative goal for this 42 day program of 36 lbs, just under a pound a day. All the research and personal information from other people on the HCG diet averaged between .6 and 1 pound per day.

If you do the math, I have lost half of my goal weight in 11 days, less than 1/3 of the total length of the program. I know that the losses will slow, but wouldn't it be great IF THEY DIDN'T.

I found the most fabulous little guide. You can find it HERE. Lots of Phase 2 recipes, trick, tips, info.

I have battled with one portion of the diet and that is the fact that you don't eat breakfast. I know that the original Dr. Simeons Pounds & Inches program works. But you have to remember that this protocol was created in the 1950's. More current scientific research shows that, in order to jump start your metabolism in the morning, you need to eat something. Yesterday, before I worked in the yard, I had an ounce of protein juice and an apple. I still had a big loss. There were other variables, the extra activity and such. I am going to do the same thing today (I have to finish the front yard) and see what happens in the am.

Another observation, or lack of. I'm a big girl with a lot of weight to lose. I am realistic, in that I know that it will take quite a bit of weight before it really "shows". I did have a mini breakthrough when I realized that I could skip 2 hooks on my bra and it still feels loose. Baby steps!

Off to eat my apple and mow the yard. I'll be back for the daily menu~~~

Snack: apple, protein juice
Lunch: tilapia, asparagus
Snack: Orange
Dinner: Shrimp (garlic, lemon, red chili flakes, cilantro), spinach, grissini

Today was a good day. Hoping for more loss tomorrow. How cool would it be to reach 20lb loss. We'll see what tomorrow brings.

Day 6 and Still Dropping

Well, I've done 6 full days on the HCG diet. Today starts day 7. I woke up this morning after a rough day yesterday and was rewarded with a 1.9 pound drop. How great is that? I kind of had a mini goal of 14lbs in 7 days. I'm only 1.2 pounds away, and I know I can hit it! Although, I am really not expecting these types of losses for the rest of the 42 days, I'm optimistic about the results.
I slept pretty well last night, but did have the help of some prescription sleeping pills. I read on a forum about a tea that help you sleep at night. (going to research that later) I would rather do that than take a perscription sleep aid. One of my goals for the year, is to rid myself of my medicatons.....all of them.
I need to get some baby oil or mineral oil. They say thats the best for moisturizing without affecting the HCG diet protocol. I have waterbased moisturizer, but I use it on my face and it's fairly expensive to be using all over my body.

I need to come up with some new recipes for these meals. When I say recipes, I mean, different seasonings. Because it's hard to make "recipes" using only 1 protein and 1 vegetable. Time to really get creative and look around the internet for some ideas.

It's early so I haven't quite decided the menu for today. But will be back later to share.
Decided to walk a bit today too.
Menu for the day
Lunch Veal (I hammered it out, makes it look like more) cucumber salad
Snack: orange
Dinner: crabcake, spinach, breadstick
Snack: protein juice
I made the crab cake with lump crab, minced onion, salt, peper, garlic, celery seed, crushed breadstick and 1 tsp of eggwhite as a binder (I know eggs arent allowed, but 0g fat, 0g carb so I figured what's the harm. The scale wll show tomorrow.

Today seemed like a long day. Kinda tired.
Til' tomorrow~~~~

Slowing Down

It's the morning of VLCD Day 5. So 4 full days of the diet. I see now how the slows happen. I was gobsmacked with the amount of weight I lost on the first 3 days. 8.2 pounds. Wow. This morning I woke up to a significantly lower loss, only 1.1 lbs. I know that it is still a great loss, but was looking forward to a little more. The last two days I have eaten too little. I'm going to up the veggies. I'm not discouraged (well maybe a little) but any loss, no matter how small, is still a loss. Then I found this photo...puts things in perspective.

I feel better now!!!!!

I read in a forum about this "Cocoa Crack" Folks use it for upping weightloss and for calming that sweet chocolate craving. I'm not a big chocolate eater, but it it helps with the weight loss, I'm game.

Here is the recipe:

3tbsp coconut oil
3 tbsp xylitol (natural calorie free sweetener
3 tbsp unsweetened cocoa powder.
 Melt the oil, mix all together and pour on a foil covered plate. Stick in the freezer to harden til you are ready to eat it. It ends up being like chocolate bark.  (It's not meant to be eaten everyday)

Here's the menu

Lunch: spinach, shrimp, melba (i added a little more spinach for the caloried)
Snack: orange
Dinner: Chicken, asparagus ,
Snack: strawberries

I went to Whole Foods and got stuff to make the cocoa crack, also picked up some flavored stevia drops (kinda steep on the price, but I'm worth it) I also found some liquid protein, just that, no sugar, no anything, organic protein 15gr/ounce/60 cal. I think I am going to substitute my breads for the protein. I'm just moving and doing too much to only have 60g of protein/day. I might be taking a chance, but I don't think it will hurt me. If I have to, I will drop a fruit.

Had a nice visit with my dad. He's zonked after a 12 hour drive. the chicken was good tonight, I "crusted" it with minced onion flakes and garlic salt, quite tasty.

Gonna have to try that cocoa crack.....

Be back tomorrow.

P2-Day 2 Good Morning

Good Morning I am feeling less heavy from the load day finally. And now,  the moment of truth.

Weight  253.3 Yeah, down 2.7lbs.

I do know alot of that is from the drastic change from binging to the VLCD. I noticed that I retained a huge amount of water from the load day food, evident in my fatter than usual sausage fingers. The proof in the pudding will be how the pounds go from here on out.  I have decided on a song for my journey. Yes, I know it's extremely popular and has probably been used by a lot of folks, but it sums up my attitude right now. Enjoy and get inspired!

I want to start everyday with this attitude!

I do have a slight issue that I need to wrap my brain around. They say you really shouldn't exercise, however, like coffee and donuts, diet and exercise should go together. I actually want to work out. But I know that with the limited calories, that I shouldn't. But would it hurt. If I feel good and don't get tired or lightheaded...can I? I must do some research.

I have figured out my menu for the day and prepped everything.

Lunch: Curry shrimp on a bed of stirfried shredded cabbage with garlic salt and dried onion, melba    toast

Snack: apple

Dinner: veal with minced dried onion, garlic salt and pepper, steamed asparagus with lemon pepper, grissini breadstick

Snack: orange

I have just gone through all the pants in my closet. If they were the slightest bit loose, I tossed them. That's the plan as I go along my journey. I don't ever want to go back....ever.

Today was long and work was busy so I didn't really feel hungry unless I thought about it. I guess the hunger will subside. I'm tired but excited to see what the scale says to me tomorrow.
Nite~Nite

Phase 2, Day 1 VLCD

It's 520 in the am. I didn't sleep very well. Most likely because of all the food I ate yesterday. Horrible heartburn this am. Perhaps, in part, from excitement. Either way, too early to be up.
Weight 256 (so only up 1 pound post load)
HCG, meds, and supplements
Coffee w/ 1 packet Truvia.
Have to call the doctor today to get a replacement perscription for the one I lost, GNC for a multivitamin. The liquid vitamins I have contain sugar. The superfood powdered vitamins only taste good in juice (which we cant have). That's the goal for today. I start back work from my little birthday mini-vacation.
This will be a real test. There is always some kind of yummy in the breakroom so I guess I just need to go to another breakroom.
Be back later with more.
Menu for the day:
Lunch     Chicken with asparagus and lemon pepper, grissini breadstick
Snack     Apple
Dinner    Spinach salad with shrimp and 2 strawberries, melba toast (broken up for "croutons"
               special vinegar dressing mix.
Snack     The other 4 strawberries

I made up a small pitcher of tea using 5 green tea bags and 3 yerba mate. I will split this between home and work.
I work from 230pm to 1030pm so I will be back to talk about how the day went. It's 1130am and I will eat around noon.

Well, the day went pretty good. Still pretty full from all the crap I ate yesterday.
But my coworker wanted my salad. It was very yummy. have a look.

Part of me wants to jump on the scale, but I will force myself not to. It's been a long day so I'm signing off until tomorrow.

Baby Steps..................

01/06/12

Good morning. Hyped about getting my groceries and making some menus today. I’ve decided along with precooking the proteins, I would precook some of the vegetables too, like spinach and chard (don’t even know what chard tastes like) New day….new experiences. Only 2 more days til the start of this journey. I’ve never been so excited about something. I am determined to make this work. I’m giving 300%.Quick observation, and this really has nothing to do with the diet. But since ending my tumultuous relationship, I am sleeping like a baby. That was a real stress maker. Off for now.
I’ve just finished separating all the groceries I packed. What could be split up, was.

I individually wrapped 3.5 oz of protein, veal, chicken breast, crab, lobster, shrimp and tilapia.
I also measured and bagged, chard, cabbage, asparagus, spinach, fennel and strawberries.
I bought but didn’t separate oranges, apples, grapefruit, tomatoes and cucumber.
I bought green tea and yerba mate tea, I also bought some smooth move tea, just incase I encounter any constipation. I also bought a few more spices, truvia and some olive oil Pam for cooking.

Next, I decided to make up a standard dressing. I used apple cider vinegar, water, crushed fresh garlic cloves that I put in the bottle whole, minced onion, lemon pepper, sea salt, mustard powder, celery seed, beaumount and 1 truvia packet. I shook the whole thing and put it in the fridge. Let’s hope by Monday it is nice and mixed.

This is going to be simple. At lunchtime I will take out what I’m having for lunch and dinner, prepare both at the same time and pack my dinner for work. Easy-peasy, just take out 4 different Ziplocs and pull out 2 different fruits and breads.
The grocery store had 3 liter bottles of Zephyrhills water on sale 10 for $10. According to the instructions, I’m supposed to drink 129oz of water per day. So one of these + a sport bottle and I’m good. I know I probably drink that much now, but this will insure that I do.

At the grocery store, I bought myself some sushi for lunch. Probably my last for a while. And I so love it.
It took a while to get everything packaged up, but will save me a lot of time during the week. Below you can see the results of my effort.

01/05/12

Well, got up this am and called the dr to find out about my kit. I was told that nothing had come in but they would call me when it did and try to get me to the 4pm class. If not, probably the 8am class on Friday morning. We’ll have to see. I’m off to exchange the broken scale (hope that’s not some sort of omen). Going to hit bed, bath and beyone to see if they the Weight Watchers scale that Dr. Bardisa recommended.

A few other errands to run too. Be back later.

I got the Weight Watchers scale that was recommened by the doctor. Got it home, unwrapped it and programmed it for my fat ass. Of course, I had to step on it to make sure it worked. Ugh! It wasn’t pretty. But I have to weigh myself everyday, so it is a must.

I decided to take some photos of myself. I hate having my picture taken on a good day. But I put on a sports bra and a pair of Capri workout pants and got to work. With the camera on timer. I took pictures of my self from every angle. I uploaded the photos and viewed them. Holy Mother of God. When did I grow another pair of boobs on my back? I am a blubberous one. A phrase from the movie Full Metal Jacket came to mind. When the drill sargeant says to a recruit. "Pyle, you look like a pile of chewed bubblegum. Ugh. This adds fuel to my fire and desire to get this weight off. I often wondered why noone finds me attractive. There are a thousand wondeful things about me, but noone wants to open the ugly package. I’m beautiful on the inside. And never really thought I looked that bad on the outside. I remember growing up I was the one with the great personality (aka funny, but I wont date ya). Or people would say "You have such a pretty face", but what they mean was, you have such a pretty face, it's ashame that you're fat. All of this really strengthens my commitment to stick to this program.  I really wish I had it in me to share the photos with you, but I just can't. Perhaps at a later date I will have the strength to do that.

I am repulsed at my own body. And when I look at my face, it’s not a happy face. Stress has really taken a toll on me. I’m so glad I got out of the toxic 8 ½ year relationship that I was in and out of. I didn’t’ always look like this.

Now if I can just get my dysfunctional family and finances in order. Maybe I can fix this mess.
After I finished taking my photos and printing it out to keep everywhere in the house, the doctors office called. They said that my kit was ready and asked if I could make it to the 4pm class. After the whole picture thing, I was more than ready. I’ll be back to see what they say.
Well, I’m back. And here’s the scoop.
Medications and Supplements

In the morning
15 units of HCG
L carnitine (increase metabolism and retain muscle mass)
Glucose tolerance pill
Phentermine (appetite suppressant for the first few days)
Noon
Green tea extract pill (energy)
Night
5-htp (amino acid)


Take all my usual medications and supplements as usual.

Meal plan
　
Morning
Tea or coffee only (no sugar or milk) may use 1 truvia packet per day in total
Injection, supps and meds
Lunch and Dinner (no food for 4 hours after injection)
3.5 oz of protein
Handfull of veggies
Fruit
Melba toast or grissini breadstick
Fruit and bread can be eaten as a snack
DO NOT EAT 2 OF THE SAME THINGS DURING THE DAY

I’m not going to list all the foods, but its very lean bee, veal, chicken breast, crab, shrimp, lobster
Leafy veggies and tomato, cucumber, asparagus
Apple, orange, grapefruit, strawberry
Green tea, coffee, water (including sypho or perrier) only

Water equal to half your body weight in ounces.
That’s it in a nutshell. I have to go back on January 31^st and February 28^th for weigh-ins, measuring and blood work.
They say I can lose around 40 lbs. Maybe more because I’m so freakin’ fat and because of my blood sugar issues. Hopefully, once I get all the weight off, I won’t have to take those meds anymore.
No strenuous exercising. Call them if there are any complications.
So my first injection is this Sunday, my birthday. The first day, you are supposed to eat as much as you want, whatever you want, the fattier the better. Monday, January 9^th, I start the VLCD (very low calorie diet). Can’t wait. If I lose as much as they say, it will be such a boost and motivator.

This evening I am going to put together my grocery list. My plan is to cook a few days of protein, maybe even a weeks worth, in advance and freeze it. I also need to experiment with some sort of dressings for the raw veggies. I cannot eat them dry…aaack. Luckily, the allowed foods list include almost every spice imaginable. Along with lemon juice, apple cider vinegar and olive oil Pam.
Ta-ta for now. Off to make the grocery list.

Grocery list is made, but I’m a little panicked. I cannot find my perscription. I have torn everything apart looking for it. Will have to call the doctor in the am to get another one.

Night~Night

01/04/12

It’s the 4^th. One day closer. My goal today is to get a new scale and make sure I can find my food scale. This will be a very important part of this process. I’ve been thinking about what I want to do for my birthday, the 8^th. I’m eating light until then. Then I will enjoy the day.

Waiting for the call from the doctors office about when to come in and get my kit. Excited.

Today and tomorrow I will work on meal planning. Saturday I will do my grocery shopping.

I also need to have Spencer take some photos of me so that I can have a before and after. They won’t be pretty, but they need to be done.

Signing off for now.

Well hell. I went and bought a scale. And it doesn’t work. Says I weigh 174. I wish. So, tomorrow I will have to go return it. Dayum.


It’s 11:00 pm and I’m just home from work. Bought an organizer today, with big enough date pages to put my menues and extra stuff. Got it filled out as much as possible.

I need to call the doctors office in the am and see when I can get my kit? Yay. Can’t wait.

I was going to keep this secret, but decided to go public. If folks know that I’m doing this, I think that I will be less tempted to stray from the protocol. And this way, people can feel free to support me. Night~Night

01/03/12

Okay, so I went to my appointment this morning. Absolutely adore the staff and the doctor. She is very sweet and easy to talk to. The office is very spa/zen like. Not only does Dr Bardisa practice family medicine, but she specializes in total well being and longevity.

I went in and paid the $250 for the consultation. They weighed and took measurement. GAWD…..254 and I didn’t even ask about my measurements. Then they drew blood, lots of it. The bloodwork will check everything, vitamins, nutrients, hormones, sugar, etc. A complete profile. They also took a urine sample.

Next, I was put in a room to wait for the Dr. Dr. Bardisa came in and introduced herself. Very pleasant, down to earth.

She discussed my habits, lifestyle, things I like, what I do. It was very personal and I like that.

She then explained the diet in detail. And I asked questions about the diet and my diabetes and celiac. She actually said that this is the perfect diet for me as it have little carbs.

Day 1 load-eat whatever I want as much as I want plus 1 HCG injection

After that:

1 HCG self-injection in the am and a very low calorie diet (VLCD) only 500 calories. That’s not very much, but I am so ready and so committed. I’m going to give it 500%.

Back to the reception desk to pay the balance of the $695. But, it just so happened, that they were running a 10% off new year sale. YAY for me. I was given a grocery/food list to get an idea of what I need. The list is sparse, but I actually prefer a diet with very little options. I was told that on Thursday, I will return to the office to receive my “kit” which includes instructions and the HCG injections. There is also a class available that day. This weekend will be my loading weekend. On Sunday, along with loading I will administer my first shot. I’m so excited and cant wait to get started. This is my year.

My plan later this evening is to look up all the calories on the items so that I can make menu options.

Til later……….

Okay, it’ midnight and I have just finished attaching calorie counts to all of the menu items. Happy there aren’t that many. Now I can start to make some menues. I want to be fully prepared for this programs. I’m dedicated. Whoohoo. Can’t wait to find my waist!

01/02/12

It’sd Monday morning and I just made my consultation appointment with the doctor, Rosalind Bardisa. 830am tomorrow. I was informed of the cost of the 2 programs, 21 day is $395, 40day is $695. It’s all good and I’m worth it. I figure that I don’t go out to get mani/pedis . I don’t go out. I don’t buy clothes (because I get frustrated in dressing rooms) I don’t carry around purses that cost as much as my mortgage. So this is where I have decided to spend my money (but thank God for good jewelry sales over the holidays) So I think I will do the 42 day plan. I have a lot to lose and if this works, it will be a great jump start and motivator for me.

Excited about tomorrow.

Off to do more research.

01/01/12

Well it’s a new year and, of course, I have resolutions. I also turn 50 this week. A major milestone for anyone. I have decided after a half a century of giving, I was going to take a few things back and focus on myself. First order of business is to remove myself from a very toxic relationship. I did that. That already beng done, my priority is to lose weight and be healthy. I have been heavy all my life. Sometimes a lot heavier sometimes thinner, but NEVER thin. I’m there right now and I don’t like it. Having all this extra weight on me affects the way people look at me and treat me. I also affects the way I look at myself. The slam dunk for me was getting ready for a New Years Eve party. I was standing in front of the mirror in the bathroom, applying my makeup. This adage kept scrolling through my head. “YOU CAN PUT LIPSTICK ON A PIG, BUT IT’S STILL A PIG. That’s how I felt. Needless to say, I didn’t go out on New Years Eve. No amount of makeup, hair gel and black clothing was going to make me look good. That…..was my breaking point. Tired of people judging me. Tired of being told, “you have such a pretty face” or “you have the greatest personality” All those statements really mean is YOUR FAT. There are 1000 wonderful things about me as a woman. I’m tired of men not taking the time to look beyond “the package” which is my chubby self.

I’m taking control. Starting today. This blog started as a personal journal on my pc. But I decided to share this with others. Besides, it's much harder to fail when the whole world is watching.

A coworker of mine walked by me. WOW. She looked amazing. I asked her how she did it and she told me the HCG diet. I’d heard of it before, even considered it. But seeing her results. I’m stoked. I will be calling the Doctor she recommended tomorrow. (it’s Sunday or I would have called today) off to do research.

It’s a new dawn…It’s a new day….It’s a new life. And I’m feeling Good!