Finally!

Well, it's day 20 of Phase 2. And I'm happy to annouce that after 4 days of up and down, I finally lost 2.1 pounds. I am so close to another mini-goal. Getting into the 220's . I was getting nervous and am so glad that I didn't have to do an apple day. bleck! I even worked out yesterday, so I'm glad I lost. Usually, the day after I work out, I stall or gain. Hopefully this downward movement of the scale will continue.

I'm feeling like a little reward today of getting out of the house. I've always wanted to try paddle boarding. But there is also a seafood festival in the Keys. I know that the better option is probably paddle boarding. What to do.... What to do.....

I have to confess though, I had a bit of an emotional evening. Clashing with my son. Not really a clash, but something he said really hurt my feelings, badly. I didn't say anything at the moment, just walked out of the room. He left the house and I texted him that what he said was very hurtful. He played stupid, huh, what, what did I do. He knew what he said...and he knew that it hurt me because I shut down and walked out of the room. All this after I jhad just gone out and bought him everything he needs to prepare for his trip to Air Force Military Training. One of my resolutions, was to stop giving so much. It's difficult because I am a very giving person. But, my cup was empty, too much giving and nothing going back in the cup. I told everyone, friends and family, that if nothing goes back in the cup....there's nothing coming out. Last ight, my son flipped the cup over and smashed it with his words. So all the things I bought him are now mine. Vindictive, perhaps, but it's what I needed to do for ME.

And just know, he left for work...not bye, hi or kiss my ass.

Anyway....the moral of this story is that I, very easily, could have gone to the fridge for comfort, BUT I DIDN"T. I realized that if I had caved to the emotional eating, that he would win. And that the only one who would pay, would be me. I deserve better. I am in control. So I'm proud of myself for that.

Keep Calm and Carry on!

Now, all that being said, today is going to be all about me. No matter what I do.
I found this little wall sign while out shopping (for his things) and it is now handing, in front of me. I will read it and read it often.....

Soon I will be able to recite this without thinking. The very bottom line is the top resolution for 2012 and beyond.

Be back later for more!!!

Menu

Breakfast: I know eggs aren't on protocol, but I planned a busy day so I had 1 whole egg, 3 whites with a little bit of spinach in it. (we'll see what the scale says tomorrow)

Lunch: Roast beef lettuce wraps

Dinner: shrimp and brussel sprouts

(plus, I worked out)

After the episode with my son, I decided to go shopping. I'm not a shopper, a mall shopper. I ususally just go buy what I need. I walked around, bought myself some new perfume, a new bedazzled case for my cell phone, a new navel ring. (yes, I'm 50 and have had it for a while). Passed by the food court, torture, but I didn't stop for anything. Later I went and bought a frame and found some calcium pyruvate. It's supplement supposedly good for weightloss. I'm going to research it and let you know tomorrow what I found out.

Why am I slowing down so much?

Day 17 of Phase 2 of the HCG diet and only down .6....grrrrrr. However, I did work out yesterday and historically, I gain the day after I work out. Could that be it? Am I slowing to a snails pace? It's very frustrating to restrict yourself so much that all you get is a .2 loss. I'm beginning to wonder if I will reach my goal. I still have 25 days to go. I'm sure that if I do another round, I will follow the 800cal program. I really think that 500 is too low for my body weight.

Yesterday I was not feeling well. I ended up leaving work early because I had a fever. I feel the same this morning. I may go ahead and take some more pictures of myself today.

I need to break out the sewing machine and take in some pants. I tried on smaller jeans. They fit in the belly, but swallowing me in the butt and legs. Just my body type I guess. I've never had hips. Sort of straight up and down, even when I was thinner.

There are 2 other girls at work that are starting the program today. I enjoy that forums and facebook pages I belong to, but it will be nice to have someone in the flesh to talk to and compare notes with.

I have a follow-up doctors appointment on the 31st. I would really love to be down 25 by then. I'm still obsessing about the diet a bit. I really need to back down and just go about my day.

It's very early so I don't have a clue about todays menu.

Menu for the day:
Snack: apple w/ cinnamon, protein juice
Lunch: Onion Crusted veal cube steak, cabbage
Snack: Orange
Dinner: Crab/shrimp ceviche over micro greens salad

I also decided to do a Detox bath. How? You assk?

Fill the tub with the hottest water you can stand.
1c epsom salt
1c sea salt
2c baking soda

Soak for at least 40 minutes and make sure to drink cool water while you are in the bath. You will sweat alot. I started with the water kind of low and kept addin hot water to keep the temp up.
Felt wonderful afterwards.

Phase 2 Day 15 and Ridin' The Rollercoaster

After a 1.3 lb loss yesterday, I am up .4 this morning. grrrrrrrr.

I did work out yesterday, probably harder than I should have. So I went back to all of my logs, weight, activity, foods. I did find an interesting correlation. On the mornings after the day I worked out, my loss was miniscule or I gained. So I went looking for answers. I found an interesting article on water retention in muscles after working out. Could this be the culprit? I reviewed my foods and everything was the same. I stayed within the calorie range and even left out one of my wasa allowances.

I'm not saying this is the reason, just assumptions is based on my own statistics. We'll see what happens in the morning.

I'm curious to see if I've lost inches, well, I know I've lost some, but how much? I will reserve that for when I go back to the doctors on the 28th of this month, my 3 week check-up.

Back to the store today for some of that yummy roast beef. I need lettuce, spinach, cabbage and lettuce too.

Back later for the menu.

Lunch:Roast beef lettuce wraps w/ horseradish mustard, radish chips, grissini
Snack: Orange, protein juice
Dinner: Curry shrimp and cabbage
Snack: Apple

20lbs gone Phase 2 Day 14

I did it! Crossed over the 20lb mark. 13 full days of the HCG diet.

Down 1.3lbs for a total loss of 20.1lbs. I am kind of surprised because I had a moment of weakness, well not really weakness. I was hungry, gnawing hunger. Water didn't work and I was feeling dizzy and couldn't sleep. So I grabbed a couple of slices of roast beef and ate it. Why the sudden hunger?

I can only suspect a couple of things:

a) yesterday was my injection skip day

b) early in the day I felt like I wanted/needed to do some exercise, so I got on the elliptical machine and before I knew it I had been on 30 minutes and burned 330 calories.

c) I also did some crunches.

To date, 2 weeks, I have been completely consumed with the HCG Diet Protocol, almost to the point of obsession. I have tried to educate myself to the best of my ability, reading forums and facebook page documents. I think it's time to just make it a part of my day without thinking. I am pretty comfortable with allowable foods and portion sizes. I credit this to journaling on FitDay. And get back to doing everyday activities, focus on my jewelry making, which I have put off for the last 2 weeks.
With my son getting ready to leave, I have things to take care of in regards to that too.
Time to just carry on and quit stressing and obsessing about it.
Haven't decided the menu for the day, it's still very early. Probably shrimp and chicken for my proteins. Maybe asparagus and cabbage for veggies. I'll be back to update the menu.
Menu for the day:
Snack: 1/2 apple, protein juice
Lunch: Grilled chicken salad
Dinner: Curried Shrimp and Cabbage Soup, Grissini
Snack: Strawberries

Found out today that we can have brussel sprouts. I'm happy because I don't eat most of the allowable veggies. Fennel (yuk), Beet Greens (can't find them) cucumbers (not that into them) Tomato (never whole, just use them sparingly)

Time for bed. Stay tuned.