I Think I'm Done

This round has been a total bust. Partially my fault (cheating) and I think, perhaps, some faulty HCG. It's just felt different this last round. I think I am going to call it a day for now and move on to P3 for a bit.

I also have been working out very hard and I may have sabotaged myself in doing that. Too much exercise and not enough calories.

Yesterday I was so hungry, I went to Wendys and got a chicken sandwich. I didn't eat the bun, but it was still bad.

I think that I will do P3 and do more strength training. Start R4 with a clean slate. I have lost inches this round and am down to a comfortable size 12. So I really have only 2 sizes left for my goal. I'm going to try on those size 8's and see how far I need to go. I also think I need to let my skin catch up.

I just very bummed. I know I won't reach my goal now. 100lbs or a size 8 by 4th of July. No way I will lose 38lbs by then.

Today it is raining, and the weather maps show no end in sight anytime soon. I will work out on my elliptical machine and do some weights. I need to focus on my core too.

I need to get my head back in the game too. I let my organization go to pot.

WELL,  I decided to try on some clothes. I got into some size 10s. hot diggity damn. I definitely have lost some inches this round. wooohooo! Renewed enthusiasm.

HCG Diet round 3 Phase 2 Day 21

This round has been an entire bust.I have fallen off the wagon several times. I'm not sure what is different about this round. Me or the HCG. I'm still not sleeping well either. I really believe that it's time to get a new mattress

I was feeling great yesterday and went to the beach. I relaxed, got some sun. I took along my shrimp, apple and cucumber.

BUT....I was so hungry on the way home, that I got a cheeseburger and french fries from Mcdonalds. I don't have a clue why. I am beating myself up. Thinking about why I did that. I have no clue.

In hindsight, I was feeling a little lonely this weekend. Even though I had a me day and bought some clothes and did for myself, my "friends" were gathering for the holiday weekend and I really felt left out.
On top of that, I feel that my son (who is away in tech school for the Air Force) is neglecting me and my needs to know how he is. Or maybe I feel like he is unconcerned about how I am doing.

I even took a laxative to try to flush things out. I believe that if I could have made myself throw up, I would have.

I have one, maybe two more doses of the injections, I will finish those and then move on to the drops. I just hope they are real and that they work.

I really need to get back on the ball and get with the program. This morning I am going to hit the trails and get my walk on. Headed to the big park to run the hill and do some strength training too.
My goal for the day, 15 times up and down the big hill. Maybe do some metal detecting too!

Maybe I'm working out too much. I think that I am going to start keeping track of my body fat. Maybe I'm displacing fat with muscle. My clothes are getting bigger.

All I know is that the scale is not moving in the right direction. Today, I am up 5 lbs....really. Impossible, because I didn't eat 17.500 calories. So I'm hoping that it is water.

So my goals for the day
15 times up and down the hill
lemon water
shakes only
tonight.....sleep (even if I have to take my sleeping pill)

HCG Diet Round 3 Phase 2 Day 20

I'm a little bummed this morning. I can't believe this 21 day round is almost over and I have only lost 12lbs. A far cry from my past rounds.

I am going to hit the beach today and try to do some introspective thinking. Clear my head and regroup.
I have packed my shrimp, cucumber and apple, along with 3 bottles of water.

I'm taking my writing journal with me. Jot some things down.

On a good note, yesterday afternoon I decided to go to the mall. Mall shopping the the past few (well, more than a few) have not been fun. I always felt like Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman. Going into a store where there was really nothing there for me.

I've done okay with interim jeans, but needed some new tops. It was really very overwhelming. There are so many choices now. I really did have to hold myself back. I am still losing, so I didn't want to go overboard. I ended up buying 6 shirts and a pair of shorts. Not too shabby.

I also hit the MAC cosmetic store. I have a birthmark on my right eyelid. It's called a mongolian spot. Dark blue-green, like a bruise. I've tried everything to cover it.
I basically got a mini makeup makeover by Ivan. He was wonderful and was able to find something that would do the trick. He also showed me how to shape my eyebrows with pencil. I have struggle with this all my life too. I have 70's eyebrows. Over tweezing and thin. I don't even tweeze anymore. They just are the way they are. What a difference decent eyebrows make on my look.

Now I just have to practice this at home. But I felt like a queen for a brief time while I sat in that chair. I ended up buying $70 worth of stuff, but felt better when I left. I really do need to take more time for me!

Todays weight~~~190....grrrrrrrrr

Todays Menu

Lunch: Shrimp, cucumber and apple
Dinner: Steak and stirfried cabbage.

HCG Diet Round 3 Phase 2 Day 19

It's 7am and a beautiful Saturday morning. I'm tempted to hit the beach today, although I know I have lots of work to do around the house. My lawnmower is on the fritz, so I need to see what's up with that and try to fix it. With all the rain lately, my yard is looking like a swamp.

I should probably get out and walk first and get that out of the way. Maybe I'll fix the lawnmower then walk, then come home and mow the yard.

Decisions, Decisions


I really need to get a grip on my sleeping. It's very bad. I think I need a new mattress, or maybe I need to put a piece of plywood underneath my mattress. It really sucks. Not sure when I had a really good nights sleep last.


Todays Weight~~~191 grrrrr wtf is going on
I swear that it's days like this that I just want to go liquid. I just might do that this weekend. F it

Menu

Cantaloupe and Water Weight

I am going to do a little experiment. I have read about the benefits of cantaloupe to reduce water retention.

I want to see if I can eat a little cantaloupe every night before bed and see if it helps. I know that it is just water. I'm not doing it to lose weight, but rather for assisting in flushing out fat and toxins.

Here is why cantaloupe works:

Cantaloupe is also known as musk melon or water. This is an excellent nutrient-packed fruit but it has very low amounts of calories.

Cantaloupe helps the body excrete excess sodium thereby reducing water weight.


I will let you know how this works out!

HCG Diet Round 3 Phase 2 Day 18

Good morning. The rain is finally gone. For now. I'm orgoing my walk this morning. My hip and hamstring were giving me trouble yesterday. Time to give it a bit of a rest. It will be housework this morning before my diet doctors appointment.

It's Memorial Day weekend and I want to have my chores done so that I can enjoy it. Then off to work this afternoon.

I still need to finish gathering "stuff" for my yard sale. I'll be having that it a couple of weeks.

I'm trying very hard to stay POP, but I seem to keep slipping. This round feels different. I'm not sure if the HCG is not good. There have been days where I was naseaus after taking it. I'll bring that up to the doctor today.

I would really like to continue with the rx injections, however, my budget is really not able to handle it. I purchased some rx drops. I'm a little worried about them and how they will work. But alot of folks on my pages and forums use them with great success. I just hope that the ones I purchased are not fakes, there are so many out there. And then there's the issue of 3 times a day, nothing to eat or drink 15min before or after. I just hope that I can keep up with that.

Either way, I need to really get my mind back in the game. I am not gaining, but seems I am not losing as well this round.

On to the scale.......todays weight~~~

Menu

Lunch: roast beef lettuce wraps with roasted radishes (going to try these for the first time)
Snack: strawberries
Dinner: Shrimp and spinach
Snack: Cantaloupe

HCG Diet Round 3 Phase 2 Day 17

Well it's day 17. I'm not real happy about my losses this round. I know that it is suppose to slow down the closer you get to your goal weight, but I feel that I still have about 35 lbs to lose.  I was stuck at stuck just at 190. Maybe an old set point. But I want to say good-bye to them.

I can't discount the fact that I did go off protocal this round.....3 TIMES...Aaack.

I must say, that I was rockin' some size 12 jeans yesterday. That means, only 2 sizes away from my goal size. I don't care how much I weigh. If I can wear a size 8. Hot diggity.

I'm heading out for another soggy walk. Then to the Sprint store because my cell phone is acting very wonky.

Todays weight is 189.9 Yippee. No more 190's

So I have said goodbye to
the
250's
240's
230's
220's
210's
200's
190's

Now THAT's something to be proud of.

Today's Menu

Work out (walked until it poured then did my elliptical machine)
Shake
Lunch: roast beef lettuce wraps
Dinner: shrimp and roasted asparagus
Cantaloupe (feel like I have some water retention