Traumatic Event and Binging

I've had a horrible weekend and the trauma of it all made me fall off the wagon. I decided to go for a mind clearing bike ride on Saturday morning. It was a nice ride, almost 20 miles. The last mile or so, the weather turned fierce and it started pouring. So I got a little wet. It was actually refreshing, at first. Then it got to raining so hard that I couldn't even see. I found a bus shelter and, literally, had to push myself into the corner of it to avoid the sideways rain. A lot of good it did. There was so much puddling even after that short time, that every time a car when by, it shot a wave of water my way. I was so close to home and figured what the heck. So I went on my way. When I got to the intersection where I needed to cross the street, I waited for the lights to turn red and all traffic stopped. As I started across the street (in the crosswalk), the vehicle in the lane closest to me, punched it and was going to make a right turn. Well....he hit me. I rolled up onto the hood of his car, coming face to face with him through his windshield. He slammed on the brakes and I rolled back off the hood onto the rain-soaked street. People say your life flashes before your eyes. Well, it's true. As I lay on the street, with the bumper of the SUV at eye level. It did. I was just trying to get to my feet as quickly as possible. My leg was injured and my back hurt. He got out of his car, helped me up and apologized profusely. He kept asking me if I was okay. NO I kept telling him. He moved his car to the gas station on the corner of the intersection and then ran back to help me over there, because it was still raining.

When I got to the gas station, I went for my phone that was in the bike pack. The screen was smashed. The guy who hit me asked me what I was going to do. I said, "Call 911". As I'm trying to get my phone dried so that I can try to use it, the guy starts to pull away. I'm thinking, no he isn't!!!!
So I was ready to get the tag number. He had taken the tag off of his car and took off out of the gas station parking lot. So now, not only am I hurt and scared, I'm mad. How do you hit someone on a bike and just take off.
Luckily, when I called 911, I was able to give them a description of the vehicle and the direction of travel.
3 police cars, a fire truck and a rescue truck show up. (I work for the fire department, these were my coworkers). The rescue got me some ice and a dry towel (remember, I am still soaked from my bike ride and spill into a puddle on the street).
I told the police officers what happened and they looked up to see 2 video cameras on the roof of the gas station.
They were able to see the vehicle and hopefully, they will be able to get a tag number.

Anyway, the rescue truck wanted to take me to the emergency room, but I just wanted to go home. So they brought me and my broken bike home, but told me if I started feeling worse, to call them and they would take me to the hospital.

After the adrenaline of the event wore off, I was feeling the pain. I took myself to the urgent care. They gave me something for pain and took some xrays of my leg and back. The diagnosis, multiple contusions and 2 compressed vertebrae. Great!. They nt me home with some medication, which took, but hate the way it makes me feel.

This morning I wake up to muscle spasm in my back and cramping in the quadracep muscle of my left leg.

The bottom line is......this traumatic event definitely pushed me into an eating binge. I don't know why I did it. Just my way of coping.

I'm upset for several reasons. I could have died that day. My bike is out of commision for my rides. I have to get a new phone. My boot camp program is put on hold. I'm missing work. And it's all coming out of my pocket unless they catch this guy.

So anyway. I need to find something else to take my mind off this.

Diet today.....epic fail

Starting over on HCG

Well. I thought I wanted to keep going on P3, but I really am getting frustrated about the scale not moving. I know that I am building muscle and that's a good thing. But I find that, because I am working out so much, I am hungry. Not a problem except that I have be satisfying that hunger on whatever was available. Yesterday, not only did I eat a storebought prepackaged muffin, but I ate 2 of them.

I'm still not sleeping well. Not sure if it's my body or my bed. I'm heading out sometime this week to get a board for under the mattress. I feel like the bed is sagging a bit. Hopefully that will help because I really can't afford a new mattress set right now.

Anyway, back to the diet.

My new plan

Wakeup
HCG Injection
Breakfast
Fruit and 2 egg whites
Supplements
Post workout
Shake
Lunch
Protein grilled on a salad, vegetable
Before Work
HCG Drops
Snack
Veggie
Dinner
Protein and a vegetable
Supplements
Snack
Apple
Bedtime
Synthroid
5htp

I'm really going to challenge myself to stay POP (perfectly on protocal) I really need to find some snacks. or, eat a small salad when I'm feeling hungry.

I'm also going to try (try being the operative word) to ease up on my workouts. I noticed yesterday, that my body is feeling tired and weak. I need a bit of a break. I think it's just the heat and humidity here in Miami. I may do my workouts on the elliptical machine in the house. I also need to buy some electrolyte tablets to add to my water.

Anyway, time to mentally regroup and get back in gear. Here's to me!

HCG Diet- Monday Monday

It's Monday and I'm not ready to go back to work. boo hoo. I had a very exhausting but fun weekend.
I love Phase 3 of this diet, I can live on this forever.


I haven't been real religous about blogging the last week. This weekend I had a great workout at the park. Riding, running, climbing and taking on the HILL. Saturday I also got the yard mowed and the cars washed. I was pooped at the end of the day.

Yesterday morning, I went on my first every real mountain bike trail ride with a friend. WOW, can you sad addicted. I could really get into this. It was treacherous at times, but I think that's only because I hadn't done it before. I wasn't familiar with the trails, so I was extra cautious. We only did about 6 miles, but it was quite rigorous. The weather turned sour and sent up packing. Next time. My friend was very informative and took it slow with me so that I could get the hang of it.

Here is a little video of some of the trails that we conquered.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmoOsXpw0sg


I'm really looking forward to doing this again, and plan to hit all the mountain bike trails in my county. That there is a goal.

This morning, I went for a bike ride and then hit the park for my boot camp. Every time I think it's getting easier, the trainer switches it up and adds a new exercise. Booyah. I will not quit.

I should have eaten before I left. I keep forgetting to do that, and it affects my performance.

There's always tomorrow. I'm hoping that Wednesday morning, I will be doing another ride at a different park. Wooohooo!

I love the feeling of kicking my own butt. I haven't felt this damn good in years.

I did it

I've decided to stop the HCG. I need food, I need hair, I need to work out really hard. 500 or even 800 calories a day just isn't cutting it. I am transitioning to P3. I will be eating super super clean on P3.


I found that, because I was working out, I was truely getting hungry. I would cave and eat whatever I could find because my body truely needed sustanance. I will concentrate on eating more vegetables, lean protein, good fats, some fruits, no breads.

I have a hair appointment this morning and then I will be heading to whole foods to pick up some good groceries.

I'm going on a long Mountain bike ride on Sunday. I am so happy to be so active. I'm am back to being addicted to working out. I feel great. Today I may give my body a break. Maybe. Well, probably not. I think I will take the day off. And workout later at the park.

My boot camp lasts another 5 weeks. I will continue P3 until it's over and then consider doing another 21 day round. I have another vial of HCG that hasn't been mixed. Hoping that will last until then.

Well...I'm logging off for the day.

HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 20

Well. I haven't really lost much weight. I think I may throw in the towel. However, I have toned up quite a bit doing my workouts and bootcamp.

As hard as I'm working out, I know that I need to eat more calories. And I just cant do that on P2. I don't want to stop working out. I feel too good. I may just transition to P3. And try to eat as P2 as possible during the week, just eat more.

I really am amazed at the transformation I am making. My arm are the shit. wooohoo

But I want my hair back and my skin back. And I need to eat. I just feel as if I wasted $600.

This morning at boot camp, I felt dizzy because I had zero nourishment in me. Tomorrow, I am going to eat before I go. Something light to get me through the workout.

Workin it Out

Whew. I didn't think it was possible to kick my own ass, but I did. Brutal workout I gave myself this morning. I rode my bike for a while and ended up at the football stadium. I got off the bike and walked 3 laps around the track and then jogged 4. The it was up/down the stadium bleachers 12 times. Then back on the bike for another 3 miles. I ended up at the workout station at the park.
Bicep curls
Shoulder press
Front raises
Tricep kickbacks
Bentover Rows
Pushups
Reverse Push ups
Squats with a front kick
Planks
Supermans

Then....off to run the HILL 6 times. Dayum!


Protein shake when I got home

Lunch: roast beef, coleslaw
Snack: grapefruit
Dinner: Grilled Shrimp on a bed of spinach with onion and tomato slices
I know it's not on protocal, but I mix unsweetened coconut milk and dry ranch dressing mix for my salad

I took the opportunity to make a pitcher of "Sassy Water". I had seen the recipe in one of my facebook groups.
 

• 8 1/2 cups water
• 1 teaspoon grated ginger
• 1 medium cucumber, sliced thin
• 1 medium lemon, sliced thin
• 12 leaves spearmint

Directions:

1. 1. Mix all ingredients together in a pitcher.
2. Refrigerate overnight.
3. Strain water.
4. Drink all 8 1/2 cups during the day
5. Can't wait to sip on it tomorrow.

HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 18

Good Sunday Morning. It's a little overcast today, which is fine. I have decided to take a break from working out today. My body is tired and needs a break. If the weather holds, I might even go to the beach. Tomorrow boot camp starts again and I'll be rested and ready to kick some butt.

I also have tons of orders and some jewelry to make. I think that I may precook some food today. It makes it so much easier throughout the week to have the food ready to go.


I still havent decided whether to continue to 42 days, or stop at 21 and eat P3 for a while. I have yet to step on the scale for a few days. I know that, because I'm working out, I could be displacing fat with muscle (which weighs more).

We'll see what it says today.  We'll I haven't lost anything still at 188. Drinking my first glass of Sassy Water. Not bad. I did add some peppermint stevia for a little sweetness. Kind of bitter from the lemon rinds I'm sure.

Here is another before/after photo that I took yesterday

(I really need to take some dressed in regular clothes, but workout clothes seem to be my daily wardrobe)

261lbs                                     188lbs

Size 22                                     Size 10

Menu for the day

Lunch: Chicken Fajita Salad, grilled chicken with fajita seasoning and grilled onions over a bed of shredded lettuce with homemade salsa
Snack: Orange
Dinner: Shrimp Kabobs (cooked on the Foreman Grill) with roasted asparagus.
Snack: Apple

HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 16

Good morning. Another overcast day in Miami. Unfortunately, this is the norm for this time of year.
I need to take one of my cars in for service and some new tires.

I think I will just drop the car off and go for a run. It will depend on the weather and how long it may take to get all the work done.

At my doctors appointment yesterday, I shared my concern about staying on the diet for the full 42 days, especially since I started the boot camp.

The doctor agreed with me. She said that if I am still losing, to keep going. If not, take a break and eat P3 while I go to the boot camp.

We'll just have to see how it goes.

I really need to find other things to snack on. Because I do such strenuous workouts, I really do get hungry during the day. My biggest obstacle is the vending machine at work and a big jar of candy that is always stocked full of my favorites. I need a visualization or mantra to help keep me away from them. It's a tough struggle. One of these days, they will come up with healthy alternatives in the snack machine. Hey, that gives me an idea. Imagine a vending machine with yougurt parfaits, cheese sticks, fresh fruit cups, protein shakes and the such. Hmmmm. great idea.

Anyway...not sure what the menu for the day will be. Be back later for more.

Menu

Workout
Protein Shake
Lunch: Roast Beef Lettuce Wraps with Scallion and Horseradish Mustard, coleslaw
Dinner: Veal cutlets (on the Foreman Grill) and roasted radishes
Snack: Strawberry Sorbet (frozen strawberries, stevia and a splash of parkling water, frapped in the blender)

HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 15

Good morning. Hazy and overcast here in Miami.The forecast is calling for rain. My schedule is tight this morning. I think I'm going to hit the park for a jog, doctors appointment at 9:30. My bootcamp class is at 10:15, so I'm not sure I will be out of the doctors office to make it, that, plus the rain. I would rather get some sort of workout in today.

I'll be out of here in the next 15 minutes.

The soreness from my initial bootcamp is waning. Hopefully all of the inflamation will be gone soon too. It was very visible on my quads.

But they feel good now.

So I'm off to walk, maybe ride the bike. I have about an hour and a half to get a good sweat on.

Be back later to update.

I'm back. I jogged for 3.39 miles and then headed to the doctors office. She was so pleased and amazed with my progress. She had to take a photo of me. On the downside, I missed my boot camp. But at least I got some form of workout.

I headed to the grocery store to pick up some p2 foods and then home to prep lunch and dinner.

Menu for the day

Lunch: Tilapia and a grapefruit
Dinner: Grilled chicken over a bed of spinach, tomato and onion
Snack: cucumber slices
Snack: Apple

HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 14

Good morning. 2 weeks in on this round. I notice that I am not so obsessed with the scale. I think this is because I am working out and know that muscle weighs more than fat. I am still very, very sore after Mondays first bootcamp class. My upper body is fine, but my lower body is killing me. I would have thought it would have been opposite since I have been running, riding the bike and climbing stadium stairs.  I even did a epsom salt soak last night and took some anti-inflamatories. It still feels like someone hit me in the thighs with a baseball bat.

It has been storming all night. So bad that the thunder was shaking my house. I don't know if there will be a class today or not. If there is, I will just have to take it easy.

I blew it as far as the diet last night, had some sushi. The rice was the bad part. Oh well, back on the wagon today.

I'm a little afraid of the scale this morning for 2 reasons. The obvious, the sushi, soy sauce and rice. The second, the inflamation in the muscles. When you workout, and your muscles are sore, they retain fluid in order to help repair them. So I may have added water weight from that.

I have to say though, I have always weighed more than I look like I weigh. It's a family genetic thing. My brother and sister are the same way. We are inherently very muscular body types. Yesterday, while getting ready for work, I decided to try on the size 10's I bought. Guesss what. They fit....loosely.

My goal on this journey has been two-fold
1) To look better and feel better about myself. I wanted to lose 100lbs or fit into a size 8. Well. I have lost just over 70lbs, still weigh in the 180's and am wearing a size 10.
2) To reverse my type II diabetes. Which I am proud to say that I have done. I no longer take any medication and my A1C is within normal range.



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HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 13

Good Morning. Well, I was up and at'em at 6:30am. Walking off the muscle pain from my first day at boot camp yesterday. They say that the third day after a hard workout is the worst. Tomorrow ought to be a doozy.

I used muscles yesterday that I didn't know I had. And it was killer on my already injured hamstring.
Tonight I think I will do a nice epsom salt detox soak.

My schedule is off today because I am teaching an Incident Command class at our Headquarters building. On the upside, staying on protocal is easy. The cafeteria there has very healthy options for food and they are accomodating when it comes to special dietary needs.

I am sipping on a protein shake as I write.

I'm kinda bummed that I am missing my am bootcamp, but the trainer gave me the option of going to the evening class (this normally doesn't happen). Still undecided whether I'm going to do it or not. I have another class in the am.


Weight for the day


Menu for the day

Walk/Elliptical
Shake
Lunch: Salad with chicken, onion soup
Dinner: sushi,

HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 11

It's day 11 of Round 4 P2. I am happy to say that I am down 1.7 pounds for a total of 16.7 pounds this round. Not too shabby.

I'm excited this morning because I start my first day of boot camp. Beach Bunny Bodies. I got a deal on groupon and it's close to the house and in the mornings, which works with my work schedule.

I'll be back to post how it went.

Yesterday I had an awesome workout. It was very hot though. I jogged up and down "the Hill" 5 time, then continued to jog for another 2 miles, then I hopped on my bike and rode for 4 miles and ended up at the stadium. I stopped and went up and down the bleachers 12 times. Back on the bike another 2 miles to the exercise station. 3 sets of push ups, reverse push ups, crunches and reverse crunches. Whew!

Okay.....so the boot camp was killer. And I mean that. There were only 5 women in the class today. The trainer was relentless. A little too hard for the first day, in my opinion. But I did it. I did every rep and even pushed to get one more in. I was sweating like a pig and got nauseous, but I DID NOT QUIT.

One hour of continuous exercise.
Stretch
Run
Bicep Curls
Shoulder Press
Front Raises
Triceps Press
Bentover Rows
Jumping Jacks
Squats
Lunges
Squat front kicks
Crunches
1 leg up crunches
Scissors
Twists
Leg lifts
Supermans
Push ups
Planks
Squat Thrusts
Stretch
Run again..........................

Now you know why I was ready to erp. All this done with very little resting in between.

HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 10

Good morning. It's a bit rainy today. But I think I will go for a walk anyway. I have "cheated" on more than one occasion over the last few days. Nothing big, and mostly because I was starving.  I've been working out hard and I don't know how to stop. I know that you aren't suppose to work out hard on this phase of the diet, but I've got the itch and it's hard to stop.

Not sure how my bootcamp is going to affect my losses. But I will just have to deal with it.

I really need to start eating a little something before I go out on my walks, even if it's just an orange.

I'm going out tonight and think I may go shopping. All of the tops that I currently have are too big. And I need shoes desperately. I have gone so long wearing sandals and I want some purty shoes.

I need to take some pictures of me dressed up. Not just in workout gear.

I do notice that my hair is thinning again, need more biotin and also some evening primrose oil for my skin.

Weight 187.5


Menu for the day.

HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 8

Well, I'm disappointed in myself. I started yesterday with every intention of not caving in to the  party at work, but I did.

I just can't describe my anger at myself. grrrrr. Okay, so I cheated, and now I need to get back on track today.

I did work out like an animal yesterday and I'll do the same thing this morning. To the park to run and ride the bike along with some weight training. Yesterday, I really tried to lengthen my stride while running. It's difficult with my deformed right hamstring. But I'm hoping that with continued effort, I can lengthen it and begin really running. I'm also trying to prime up the upper body in preparation for my Boot Camp on Monday.


I wish that there was a way to just kill my taste buds.

Anyway, get back up and brush it off.

On a good note, I noticed something yesterday. It's was something small, but really hit me.
I was doing crunches and looked towards my feet. I realized that I can no longer see my belly. Woohoooo!

I also had an enexpected bonus while at the park working out. I was at the exercise station and there was a trainer there. He gave me a few tips on how to accomplish pullups. So I'm going to try that today.

Todays weightloss

Todays Menu

HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 7

Happy 4th of July

What are your plans today? Unfortunately, I have to work today. That means protecting and saving the folks who are going to really enjoy the holiday. I'm okay with that except that I would really rather be out on the boat with my brother. It's a beautiful day.

We are having a little celebration at work, so I need to be very careful of all the temptations.
We always have a sign-up list of who's going to bring what. I looked at the list yesterday, making a mental note of what I can and can't eat. NOTHING. Not a darn thing on the list can I eat. I am taking a vegetable platter, I can enjoy that (minus the dip)

I'm off this morning to take on the park. I'm really enjoying being able to use the track at the local park. I walk the track and climb the bleachers.

Going to do some push ups and the like today. All in prep for my bikini boot camp. I can't wait.
I may hit target after the park. Retail Therapy!


So I'm off early this am.

Weight loss for the day

Menu for the day

Walk
Shake
Lunch: Chicken Citrus Salad over spinach
Dinner: Shrimp, asparagus
Snack: apple

HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 6

Good Tuesday Morning.

I just realized that in my rush to try out my new running shoes yesterday, that I forgot to weight myself. This is kind of a good thing because I really don't want to be a slave to the scale. An obsession I see far too many people cave in to.

So we will see what the scale says this morning. By the way, the running shoes were fabulous. I ran 6 times around the track, up/down the bleachers 6 times and then hopped on the bike for 7 miles. The sweltering heat is affecting my workouts though. Slowing me down.

On a good note, while checking my emails, I came across a Groupon for 6 weeks of bikini boot camp very close to my house and in the mornings (I work in the afternoon). Total cost for up to 24 sessions $35. That's about a buck 25 per session. Can't beat that. I have been doing lots of cardio, but am ready to really muscle up. I start Monday and the good thing is that I can ride my bike to the park where they are doing the bootcamp. YAY. I'm so excited.

Here's an updated progress photo collage.

I'm going to work out here today. Doing some weights and the like in prep for the boot camp. I don't want to be too sore the day after. So I am going to prepare for it. I also have some chores to do around here and some jewelry to finish up.

Todays loss 1.7lbs for a round total of 14.9 yippee!

Todays Menu

Mow the yard and housework
Shake
Lunch: Taco burger lettuce wraps with salsa
Dinner: Shrimp and coleslaw
Snack: Orange

It's the Little Things

Funny when you start losing weight how you notice the little things that change about your body. Yes, there are the big things, like the pounds and the changes in clothing size. As much as it kills me to get rid of clothes that I spent my hard earned money on, I just love when I put something on and it's just too big to wear. But there are smaller milestones that really tickle my fancy. I've compiled a list of little things that keep me motivated.

1) Seeing the numbers on the scale go down
2) Trying on clothes and having them be too big
3) seeing your collarbone or wrist bones
4) being able to cross your legs without having to wedge the top legs foot against something so it won't violently uncross
5) your rings get lose and there are no more sausage fingers.
6) Your arms actually hang at your side instead of away from them because of side boobs,
7) Speaking of boobs, no more "back boobs"
8) Your feet feel loose in your shoes
9) This s actually a big one, when someone you know doesn't recognize you as you walk by.
10) You find your cheekbones
11) You can paint your toenails without having to contort yourself. Same goes for shaving your legs.
12) You can finally scatch that spot on your own back.
13) Someone calls you skinny or says that you are just wasting away
14) Doing a crunch and not seeing your belly when you look towards your feet



to be continued........feel free to comment with your little moments

HCG Diet Round 4 Phase 2 Day 4

Well it's another beautiful day here in Miami. I think I might go to the beach today. I've earned it. It's not windy, might even go rent a kayak. But then again, I have some jewelry business things to take care of. maybe I'll just lay out in the back yard. I could use some sun on my belly and would dare bare it at the beach. Plus, I'll save that travel time.

Yesterday I worked out very hard. Ran the track at the football stadium 6 times, up and down the stadium bleachers 10 times, up and down "the Hill" 10 times, 50 crunches, 50 reverse crunches, 30 push ups and 30 reverse push ups. My upper back is really feeling it. I'm going to give my body a rest today.

Todays weight~~~189.3 loss of 2.2lbs round total 13.2


Todays Menu

breakfast: 1whole egg with 3 eggwhites, 1 small grapefruit
Lunch:
Dinner: burger wrapped in lettuce with cucumber salad